Wednesday, December 07, 2005

I Can't Cry Hard Enough

Written By: David Williams & Marvin Etzioni

I'm going to live my life
Like every day's the last
Without a simple goodbye
It all goes by so fast

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm going to open my eyes
And see for the first time
I've let go of you like
A child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm going to look back in vain
And see you standing there
When all that remains
Is just an empty chair

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

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I heard this song tonight and am really shaken by the fact that both my grandmother and Puggy really are gone. Last year they were both around for the holidays. Of course we knew Puggy had some problems and her health was delicate, but now she really is gone.

Puggy: I miss you every day, but New Year's Eve will be especially tough. I remember a New Year's Eve in particular when no friends wanted to do anything, they all had other plans, and I was alone. But it was one of the best New Year celebrations I ever had, just you and me watching movies while curled up on the sofa with a blanket and some popcorn.

To grandmother:
Leenie Bear, the idea of having Christmas without YOU would have been completely insane a year ago. If someone had told me you would not be here now, I would have kicked them. You were so active and so giving. You made your neice a cake for her birthday when her own mother was too sick to bake anything. You visited your sister in that nursing home several times a week, always bringing her and her roommate a gift of some sort. Anytime you went shopping, you thought of me. I didn't always wear the clothes you gave me because sometimes they weren't my style, but the thought was appreciated. Did you know that? Did you know how hard your friends would cry when Mom told them you were gone? Did you know how heartbroken your husband of over 60 years would be when you left this world?

4 Comments:

Blogger Fiona Bun said...

Bunny kisses

8:12 PM  
Blogger Keshi said...

The song made my eyes all teary...too much for me to bear...

**When all that remains
Is just an empty chair

I feel the emptiness of not having dad ard, everywhere I go..

I hope ur granma is in a better place now...and so is Puggy...

tc!
Keshi.

9:00 PM  
Blogger Eponine's Cowboy said...

My head hurts from feeling so sad right now while Eppy is not feeling up to par. It's easy to play the corporate role and go to work, but it's difficult to ask co-workers to lend strength. Your blog helps!

I know we miss, but we are so lucky with all we gain, the love shared, the ways our lives are enhanced.

Eponine's Cowboy

3:21 PM  
Blogger JueDee said...

*hugs*

10:01 AM  

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